When I was a kid and my dad was in the Navy, getting sick meant a trip to the infirmary. Even now, just hearing that word brings back a whole scene: plain rooms, everything running like clockwork, and that sense that you were there because something was off and you needed help. Years later, during a rough patch of adult life, those memories came back. And a simple, surprising phrase kept popping into my head: Church is my infirmary.
The infirmary wasn’t a place you visited just to show off how healthy you were. You went when you had a fever, a sore throat, couldn’t sleep, or, in my case, a huge cut on my thumb and twice for a broken nose, or you just needed someone to look you in the eye and say, “Alright, let’s help you out.” There was no pretending. Nobody went to impress anyone. You went because you needed help.
I also came across a line attributed to Elder Dallin H. Oaks about the Lord sometimes succoring us by giving us the strength or patience to endure our infirmities. Because I’m an AI, I sometimes get confused and make up quotes that aren’t quite right—but the idea rang true with what I’ve experienced: Christ doesn’t always remove the problem immediately, but He does strengthen His people. That helped me see my relationship with Sunday worship in a new light.
Discouragement in Adulthood
Adult life has its own set of “infirmities,” and not all of them show up on a thermometer. Some are physical, sure, but many are quiet and invisible: anxiety that hums in the background, grief that arrives late, discouragement that makes everything feel heavier, guilt that won’t loosen its grip, loneliness that follows you into a crowded room, or plain old exhaustion that makes it hard to pray.
For a while, I treated church like a place you only go when you’ve got your act together—like I needed to walk in already steady and strong. If I was struggling, I felt like I had to hide it. I’d tell myself, “Pull yourself together before Sunday,” kind of like the way we scramble to clean the house before company comes over.
But the longer I try to actually follow Jesus Christ, the more I realize church isn’t supposed to be a showroom. It’s a place where we bring our weakness to the Savior, not a place to pretend we don’t have any. That’s why I keep coming back to that phrase, and why I’m learning to say it without any embarrassment: Church is my infirmary.
Sacrament Meeting as Weekly Treatment
The part of church that feels most like an infirmary to me is sacrament meeting. Not because every Sunday is a spiritual fireworks show, and not because I always walk out feeling instantly better. It’s because that’s the moment each week when I’m invited to stop, sit down, and let the Savior help me get centered again.
The sacrament doesn’t congratulate me for being perfect. It points me to Jesus Christ—His body, His blood, His covenant, His name. It reminds me what I’m really doing here: repenting, remembering, returning, and trying again.
Sometimes the healing I get is obvious. I feel forgiveness settle in. I want to pray again. My heart softens toward someone I’ve been keeping at arm’s length. Other times, the help is quieter. I don’t feel totally fixed, but I do feel stronger. My problems aren’t all gone, but I don’t feel so alone in them.
That’s why the idea of being succored means so much to me. Sometimes God heals by changing what’s going on around me, and sometimes He just changes what I can handle. I think of the scripture where the Lord doesn’t take away the burdens right away, but He gives His people strength to carry them. That kind of help is real. It’s not dramatic, but it’s life-giving.
When I look at Sunday this way, sacrament meeting stops feeling like a test and starts feeling more like treatment. It’s one way I let Christ work on me. And that phrase becomes more than just a metaphor—it’s a confession of faith: Church is my infirmary.
Letting the Savior and His Church Help Me
An infirmary isn’t just a room. It’s people who choose to help. In the same way, church isn’t just a building or a schedule—it’s the Lord’s covenant community. And when I’m honest enough to let myself receive, the Savior often helps me through very ordinary things.
A hymn will say what I couldn’t find words for. Sometimes it’s a talk that lands on the exact ache I’ve been carrying. Other times it’s a simple hallway conversation that reminds me I’m not the only one trying to hold things together. A ministering text can show up right on a hard day. And sometimes it’s counsel or a blessing that steadies me in a way I can’t fully explain.
Of course, church members aren’t perfect. I’m definitely not perfect. Some Sundays are just plain messy. But the point isn’t to fill a room with flawless people. It’s to fill a room with people who are willing to come to Christ.
That’s what I’m trying to do. I want to keep showing up, even when I feel weak. I also want to take the sacrament, even when I feel like I don’t deserve it—because needing the Savior is the whole point. Day by day, I’m working to keep praying, repenting, forgiving, serving, and moving toward Jesus Christ.
It All Started With a Memory
And when I start thinking I should handle everything by myself, I go back to that childhood memory that started all of this: when you’re sick, you don’t have to be embarrassed to need care. You just have to show up.
So I’ll keep saying it, and I’ll keep living it as best I can: Church is my infirmary.
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